All Over

On my home last night I realized that today is 1 month after mom died. The past month is mostly a blur, I remember it, but it is hard to believe that I haven’t spoken with her for over a month. I miss her.

It began to hit me last night. I went to see “Meet the Robinsons” in 3D. The movie was very cute and funny, though it didn’t really gain anything from 3D. The movie focuses on a young orphan who is abandoned by his mom, I won’t go into it any further to avoid spoiling it for others – but it began to gently bother me and I couldn’t watch the movie without images and memories of mom floating through my head.

The drive home I sat in quiet contemplation. It was then that I realized what today marked and it all weighed on me. I had come off of such a good day. My improv class, the Orlando Magic winning, and hanging out with friends, but mom’s passing really weighed on me and cast a shadow over it all.

My mind is all over the place today. It’s focusing on mom, on school, on SAK, on the podcasts. I can’t focus on anything right now.